My Very Dear [her name here],
This is an open letter to you which others than yourself will read, but it won’t contain anything that I think would be best left said only between the two of us. I think it will be beneficial for some, though to others it will be utter trash. To those who read and benefit: bless you! To those who read it and hate it: maybe don’t read other people’s mail 🙂
Back to you, my dearest…
First, I want you to know that I pray for you everyday. Every. Single. Day. I’ve been praying for you going on decades now, though not as intentionally and consistently as the past decade or so–nor so much as the past year and a half. Inshallah that I live, I believe you’re out there somewhere and our loving Father will guide us together through the Spirit in the place He’s already arranged. It’s right for me to feel this way because a couple of times it almost happened that way. So I know the pattern and we’ll find each other.
My prayers for you are that first, you’ll be growing in Christ-likeness. I want you to become more like our Savior and Lord everyday–shunning the things of this world and the temptations to the lust of the eyes, the lust of the flesh, and the boasting of the “good” life, and embracing the love of the unseen, the love of the Spirit, and the boasting of eternal life. The world would have you believe you are already perfect, strong, etc. I don’t think anyone–male or female–is any of those things just in themselves. I need to grow. You need to grow. I want us to encourage each other and spur each other on–without leaving any too harsh spur marks. ~sigh~ Yet I’m no fool. Every man hurts his woman. And every woman eventually hurts her man. I pray we have the grace for each other we’d expect from our Father to us.
[Qualifier: “hurting” doesn’t encompass abuse, cheating, or lying. The first two of those boil my blood. The third flays my skin. Please, let’s do our best to be open when one of us begins to hover on a line we don’t want the other to cross]
I pray you’re growing everyday in one aspect or another into that noble woman which no one seems to be able to find (Proverbs 31:10ff). I know that’s a difficult standard to live up to perfectly, and I don’t expect perfection–just direction. And I truly can’t wait to be able to look at you and say, “There’s not a soul on this planet that can hold a candle to you!” And I hope I can measure up to every mark of a man the Lord intends.
Another prayer for you, in light of you growing in Christ, is that if you don’t currently have a vision for overseas work (B4T/BAM) that the Lord will guide you to research that and catch onto it in your own time and in your own way. For my part, I’m keeping up with web sites and other media that have to do with encouraging a global mindset and global goals. In no way do I mean that you have to be a missionary–not in what’s oft called the “traditional” sense. I only mean that being married to a man who sees the Lord’s calling on his life as leading him, eventually, to parts of the world where the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are scant for the purpose of Bible translation and church planting is a unique commitment on top of everything else that has to be managed in a relationship. I’m praying that the Lord is preparing you for that sort of thing even now. But no matter what: Take. Your. Time! Rome wasn’t built in a day and I didn’t have any sort of vision for being a Bible translator till much later in my college career. I didn’t come out of the womb with a Bible in one hand and a shoe box and note cards in the other–except maybe from His perspective.
I pray for your current life situation. I pray that everything that’s happening now–painful or exciting–will shape you and mold you into the woman who’s right for me. You might be seeing someone. You might have ended a relationship. I have no way of knowing any of this. But I don’t have to know. The Lord knows. And if you’re hurting, I pray the Lord’s healing touch and, as appropriate and welcomed, you have my heart with you even now tenderly, and my prayers go up for you. If you’re in a bad relationship, I feel terrible for any grief you bear, but there’s a part of me that would shed no tears when a bad thing ends. For my part, I’ve had very few and very far between and very short-lived relationships. I’m currently 42 (when this was written), single, never married, no children. Pray for me to have confidence so that when we meet I’ll act appropriately and we can manage our relationship in a manner worthy of the Lord. Since grade school, I’ve always been the laughing stalk, the last one picked, the least desired. Through high school and college and most of my adult life, nothing has really changed all that much. Even so, I have a spark of hope still in me that refuses to give up. Pray for that little ember to be fanned into a flame for when we meet.
I pray for you in your job. I pray that you’ll prove the work ethic to which all Christians are called: to toil at a legit job with eagerness, to the point we have a surplus to share with those who are currently needy (Ephesians 4:28; Proverbs 31:20). I don’t just pray that you’ll prove a strong work ethic, but more importantly that others will notice in such a way that makes them wonder why you’re different–that they’ll ask you about it and you’ll be able to tell them about how you do all things as if for the Lord and not for man. In that way, I hope you’ll get to share a bit of who Christ Jesus is to you and so gain a hearing for the good news of Jesus our Lord.
I pray for us as parents. I sometimes cry because I know that statistically speaking, I might not be able to be around for you and them as long as I’d like to be or see our children grow to be grown men and women with families of their own, serving the Lord in whatever way the Lord leads them. But I’ve made somewhat of a hopeful provision (you’ll find out as we get to know each other), though it would only be vicarious, so that our kids will know at least a little bit of who I am–or who I was. Yet not I, but Christ in me–molding me through difficult times and my own sinful self.
I pray for our ministries both together and apart. I don’t envision anything presumptuously, so whatever the Lord calls you to, that’s what I want you to do. If He calls you to be an entrepreneur, then may the wealthy of this world learn what a Christian does with her money to honor the Lord and lay up treasures in heaven and become rich in good deeds. If He calls you to poverty, may the poor feel rich because of the rich life being lived out despite the rough circumstances. Maybe right now you’re in the full swing of some amazing ministry. Maybe you’re at the top of your game, going overseas, helping with church planting, etc. If that’s you, Hallelujah! But maybe right now you’re in a season when you feel like a lost lamb (or a black sheep?) who’s wandered and feels like she can’t speak one word of scripture, let alone share Christ with anyone, because she would feel hypocritical. If that’s you, then I pray you hear the Shepherd’s voice tenderly calling you. I pray you follow Him again, find your voice once more, and speak them, speak them, wonderful words of truth! You absolutely are loved by our Savior and your man. He’s the King and you are one of his elite warrior princesses. I know you are because I can’t and won’t marry anyone less. So if you’re down right now, that’s fine. But when He calls–when that gentle breeze sweeps across your soul–that quiet whisper in the night, raise your sails and catch the Wind. Get caught up in the hurricane and let Him lift you high on the wings of the wind! Soar, as the scripture says, on wings like eagles. Run and don’t grow weary, walk and don’t grow faint. He’ll give you that new strength. He promised, my dove. He promised!
Let me say this, too: You. Are. Amazing. I know you are. I know our current culture says things like, “That’s nice, but I don’t need no man to affirm me.” But I want to say it. I have to say it because just as God doesn’t need our praise, He nevertheless lives within the praises of His people. And I have to say it because it’s true. And the truth needs to be said, acknowledged, and loved. Now you might not feel like you are amazing right now. Or maybe you do. Regardless, when we do finally come together–inshallah that I live–all this waiting that we’ve had to endure will only highlight the amazing work that God is now doing in you to be fulfilled in its proper time. You’ll be especially amazing to me because you’ll be the one who has hung in there with me.
And so I say with Israel’s priests:
Yahweh bless you and keep you
Yahweh make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you
Yahweh lift up His countenance upon you
And give you peace
And in the words of Paul:
Now to Him who is able to do
Than all we ask or imagine
According to His power
That is at work within us
To Him be glory in the Church
And in Christ Jesus
Throughout all generations
Very tenderly yours in Christ,